I am looking for friends right now.. To chat with online and hangout in the area if that is possible.. Yes I am a gay male 36 years old 6'1 brown hair (short) 230 lbs some extra baggage.. I was in a serious relationship and I screwed it up after 4 years together and I regret everything that I done wrong.. We still talk online and says that he still Loves Me and wants me to wait for him, so I am going to wait for him... He asked me to marry him December 25th,2005 and I accepted.. Now I screwed up because I was yelling at him all the time and fighting and I got locked up a few times because I am on probation and he got lonely this time and met someone else and moved in with him.. I got home early and when I got here he was gone.. He left before I got the chance to tell him that I have changed for the better and I was going to work of my probation and go to school for my G.E.D. and I found out that I can get bonded by the state of Georgia to become a cop that he wanted me to be... At first when we met I had a drug problem and wouldnt admit it to anyone but I have been clean and drug free for some time now and I wish he would believe me.. Plus I also wanted to tell him that I never cheated on him or never wanted to in my life.. He was the only man that I wanted in my life... Zeke if you ever read this I am being honest with you with allmy heart and soul.. I Love You And Always Will No Matter What Happens And Yes I Will Wait For You... I wanted to say thankyou to Zeke for spending Christmas with me and to tell you that I Love You very much and I told you that I would wait for you and you would give me an answer on New Year's if you were coming back home or not.. You promised me that you would come back and spend more time with me and then you told my mom that all you miss is your dog... Well you can come and get your dog if you want... It's plain and simple that you don't want me back.. If that is the case then you need to set me loose so I could move on with my life and see if I could find myself someone that can fill this space in my heart that you left since you already found someone for your life.. Please if you ever read this please let me know something... I Love You And Always Will.. I want You and nobody else in my life but if I have to move on it will be hard for me to do because your the one that I fell in Love with and will NEVER let go for anything...