noones perfect,i make my mistakes.when it happens i feel guilt and can tend to punish myself.im also tryin to work on that the last two yrs have been a complete disruption in my long worn routine,ive finished school,found a job after many many yrs of not having one,then lost the job lol.i ended a five yr relationship,dated a few ppl since(which was totally different)and ive made some progress on other vises.i want more happy moments in my life and i know i cant do it alone,be it in the form of friendship,partner,or jus a night of casual conversation with someone out there i know that these moments i seek are obtainable in time.i ask for patience everyday.somedays i suck,somedays im better.everything including me is a work in progress.