I am a romantic. I don't mean the kind who likes fancy dinners and things like that. I want someone to look at me and think, "wow, he's great." I want him to look at me like no one has ever looked at anyone before. I want random text messages that say he was thinking about me. I want him to smile just thinking about me and the way I make him feel. I also want him to realize that I have major insecurities, worries and doubts about myself. I don't want him to condemn me for having them, I want him to understand and accept me for who I am, as I accept him for who he is. I want him to told me, kiss my forehead and tell me it's all going to be Okay. I don't want him to get mad at me for having the low self-esteem I've been fighting for years, but instead listen and just smile at me. I want him to hold my hand walking down the street, just swinging our arms around and being goofy. I want those nights where we sit in our underwear playing video games, or watching movies holding each other. We could be watching a movie and I could pick up a book and start reading, but still be there because we enjoy each other's company. I want someone who will understand that I will be there, trying to help them in their time of need. I want someone to listen to my insane rambling of a madman or my venting, but also for him to know i am there for him as well. We will share everything. Everything I do is not out of maliciousness but out of love and respect. I want a man to love me for me There are a few reasons I go onto these apps and sites. 1) I enjoy talking to men from all over the world. I love browsing through their pictures and getting glimpses of the world they live in. The things they do, places they live, the people in their lives. I especially like seeing the landscapes from where they come from. 2) I think men are beautiful in their own way, emotionally, mentally and physically. I like to browse through their profiles but rarely say hello (mainly because I never get a response back). I enjoy looking at their faces, their bodies, their anatomies and just revel in the physical beauty of it all. I look and see that they put themselves out there, raw, naked and the realness of who they are, regardless of the fear of judgement and rejection of it all. They know they are beautiful and I envy them for that. From the glittering eyes, to the handsome faces, to the broad chests and appeal of thick legs and arms. From the softness of their bums to the shape of their penises. Men always have a beautiful visual quality to them. I love to read their profiles and learn about who they are, where they come from, what they like and hope to achieve in their lives. I also sympathise when their life takes an unexpected turn and they feel low about themselves. But their emotion is real and I can feel the pain. Whenever I get the few handsome men who have a horrible and selfish personality, i can't help but feel they are ugly on the inside and it shows on the outside. Its not really something I can get by and I avoid people with a negative attitude because it is unnecessary. I can say though if I find a man physically attractive but with a bad personality, I will continue to look but will not speak